Considering that the case is because of her refusing to pay child support, it's already in my favor, I think it's more of the fact that I have to be in the same room as her that bothers me. As long as I don't come out to slashed car tires like last time I'm happy.

We're hanging on still. My issues are catching up with me since I have a court date soon against my ex but its not going to be as bad as my anxiety is making it lol.

Wanna bet? If they are dumb enough to send it through facebook messenger or from a cell phone its not difficult to backtrack and get identifiable info, you'd be surprised how many people put a lot of info out there, my facebook for example has incorrect home town and all listed, no visible cell phone or email info the only correct info is my name which technically is a nickname anyhow. I've seen fools dumb enough to tag home addresses and work addresses for crying out loud. Maybe it's because I have a mentally unstable nut out for my blood but I like to be careful.

Probably a mix of being tired and half crazy.

Why the downvote? Its a relevant comment, she has to pay me child support, not that she does.

Ask my ex that one, lol.

Yeah it's all fun and games until they need help with a random nutball dictator or some natural disaster.

I have it could've been great, but that bridge has burned no point in trying to get milk out of a rock. Now I'm just giving my kid the best/ safest life I can.

We weren't married although I had the funds for a wedding in a secret account, used that for the lawyer. I wrote her an eviction notice after the cops arrested her after the attack. I did actually have two minor heart attacks while we were together, from stress and hypertension caused by her.

Especially when I get to the point where the judge said 'Ms *** if you're not going to ask questions or conduct yourself in a proper manner be silent!' About ten minutes after that he gave me custody and *strongly* suggested a mental evaluation for my ex.

I'm a very happy introvert, so being alone doesn't bother me. I don't remember much of the first few months after I kicked the psycho out it was a total mess, I was running around getting a lawyer and protective orders I remember having several severe panic attacks, ending up in the hospital a couple times, eventually I started to tell myself 'it's not the knife that's dangerous it's the hands holding it' got on medication and therapy, not gonna lie though I still have major issues when *she* is around or any similarly shaped women with red hair. My ability to remember small details actually helped my custody case, between that and her going off about 'conspiracies against her' and having several witnesses to her craziness my lawyer said his presence was pointless, he actually gave me a third of his retainer fee back because he expected a battle not a circus. I still laugh when I read the transcript for the case...

I can control my triggers to the point that I will visibly shudder now, but in the months after the incident I couldn't even look at anything serrated without going into a full panic, but to an extent I can stare down the barrel of a gun and not even sweat but a knife puts me on edge. My kid is the younger one. My nightmares are real enough I often end up in a sleep paralysis state, so I work nights and sleep days to help avoid those, even went so far as to install security cameras and alarms so that I can watch for trouble and protect my family. Still I hate the fact that even after 8.5 years I'm still badly tormented by my experiences, I've actually decided that having any romantic relationships is off the table for me, I just can't bring myself to take any risks of history repeating itself.