It has been kicking my ass lately

Hell is full of people whom were tasked with survival and prosperity, failing at both. THEY ... are the ones mocking you. Those whom fight the war within and suffer the sorrows bestowed by the world wear their scars (physical AND mental) like medals of honor. Stoic soldiers in these wars never mind the indifference of others, for we know the miniscule struggles they face, begs us for courage. Hold the line. Oohrah.