Song: I'm Not Okay
Artist: Citizen Soldier
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This is more along the lines of "24 floors" than some of the other songs. Not super hopeful, but it's also very important for people to be able to express their pain sometimes I think.
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So for anyone who needs to hear this today or any other day
Lyrics:
Tonight the monsters in my head are screaming so damn loud
But I built walls so high,
So they never even make a sound
it's a mask, it's a lie
It's the only home I've ever known
Because being who I really am
Has only left me more alone
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I am not okay
And I need you see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
The reason I keep quiet
With so much at stake
I always feel like a burden
Let it silence me
You'll never understand
Why it's so hard to say
I'm not okay
(I'm not okay)
.
I wish I had a scar, had a bruise
On the surface, any kind of proof
That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse
(I'm not okay)
My life's invisible abuse
I'm either judged or have to hide
The only symptom you can see
Is I don't want to be alive
I am not okay
And I need you see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
The reason I keep quiet
With so much at stake
I always feel like a burden
Let it silence me
You'll never understand
Why it's so hard to say
.
I never have the words
I can't explain this hell
But what if it kills me if I keep it to myself?
To myself
.
I am not okay
And I need you see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm never safe
It's not a phase
If I finally break
Will you still stay...?
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Tonight the monsters in my head are screaming so damn loud
Found this song in a darker moment and oh my does it feel true. Struggled with anxiety and depression, while my dad who's a former psychiatrist say I'm fine. Love the man but him saying that I was fine was a bit of a mind warp
From what I've seen a lot of time when people who genuinely care about us say "you're fine" what they mean is "I don't understand."
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Sadly getting people to take the time to try and understand is another matter
Artist: Citizen Soldier
.
This is more along the lines of "24 floors" than some of the other songs. Not super hopeful, but it's also very important for people to be able to express their pain sometimes I think.
.
So for anyone who needs to hear this today or any other day
Tonight the monsters in my head are screaming so damn loud
But I built walls so high,
So they never even make a sound
it's a mask, it's a lie
It's the only home I've ever known
Because being who I really am
Has only left me more alone
.
I am not okay
And I need you see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
The reason I keep quiet
With so much at stake
I always feel like a burden
Let it silence me
You'll never understand
Why it's so hard to say
I'm not okay
(I'm not okay)
.
I wish I had a scar, had a bruise
On the surface, any kind of proof
That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse
(I'm not okay)
My life's invisible abuse
I'm either judged or have to hide
The only symptom you can see
Is I don't want to be alive
And I need you see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
The reason I keep quiet
With so much at stake
I always feel like a burden
Let it silence me
You'll never understand
Why it's so hard to say
.
I never have the words
I can't explain this hell
But what if it kills me if I keep it to myself?
To myself
.
I am not okay
And I need you see it
I have so much to say
And no one to hear it
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm never safe
It's not a phase
If I finally break
Will you still stay...?
.
Tonight the monsters in my head are screaming so damn loud
.
Sadly getting people to take the time to try and understand is another matter