Edit; I thought you were describing your thoughts for the second image until I read it again. I'm sorry those things happened to you.

@smitty THAT'S NOT FAIR!!!(pouting)

Yes to all in the second paragraph for the second image, just didn't know how to put it in writing.
My mistake was, expecting the best. There were indication in the 5yrs of dating, a slight aggression every now and then, sudden burst of jealousy over silly things, and many other things. And I thought saying yes, maybe... juuuust maybe, was going to change everything. It did.... for the worst. !0 yrs... gone. I'm shaking just typing this...
I can laugh at myself for being stupid and naive, but not yet for the rest. Just remembering it, gives me anxiety
What a sad sad bunch we are (smile)

noooooo I doooooooon't!!! Hahahaha.... you're funny. You always able to make me laugh with your teasing comment, I bet you're fun in person, and annoying as hell (smiley face)

made a few edit, and I still think I don't make any sense, maybe I'm reading too much out of a fun post

Saw it again just to make sure what you meant. It wasn't the "forced" for me, but deceit. First image: nice, kind, understanding, sincere
Second: possession, controlling
And the image sudden transition is what triggers the bad flashback

Hi @smitty (chuckles) was about to comment the same, till I saw yours. Yes... this is very very frightening, brings me flashback and not the good one.

@flyingoctopus but I don't have an emotional attachment, to him or anybody here. I know...I know..., that contradicts the fact that I have a crush on him, but only for his thoughts. Actually.... I think I do have an emotional attachment... to funsubstance. After a long and sometimes shitty day, it's my go to place to unwind. A pick me up when I'm down, place.

@rosalinas thanks for the tip :)
@smitty I have never felt that you come off as condescending. Not once. And I'm sorry if I make you feel that way. This fun games are new to me. It's a good feeling bubble, that I don't want to burst.

Knew the meaning but not how to play along. I thought you can change the shipping to joyride. really really sad now

No that's not right, I didn't even get to board the ship let alone steer it. Can we just do a do over @smitty?

@rosalina sniffsniff... I sunk the ship... I tried to steer the ship and hit the iceberg of stupidity. sniffsniff

See... my clumsy ass and dumb luck, first ship I ever had, and I sunk it??? NOOOOO

Wait.. did I do it wrong???

@flyingoctopus Why rip?? we can use a ship shape car, and "sail" on the road, or does it have to be ship/shipping. If it does, than I change my mind, ditch the joyride, board the ship. I'm confuse. New at this kinda thing. Still need guidance

@smitty I know what ship/shipping meant. Sometimes when I'm too tired and sleep deprived, my brain stop working properly, Sooo.. I guess I was right to giggle then. Shippers huh?? Could we just ditch them and go for a joyride instead, less motion sickness, preferably one with scenic route with old ruins and waterfalls :)
Ooh I really hope rosie doesn't see this, (whispers) she's everywhere... I don't think she sleeps
@flyingoctopus You think this is fffffunny ffffly???? The price to be your stalker has now rise to 10 boxes of twinkies, how about that!!!

Aaaaaand... there she is

See!! (saying in a high pitch voice).... I don't even understand what you're saying right now, what shippers??!!! The only ship that was ever mention was by rosie, and then when you say boat, I thought you meant THAT and then I realize, oooh maybe he meant real ship that transports idiots. Sigh.... I should've just deleted the whole thing instead of editing it. And the 50 shades thing, I already said my peace about that book, and it was @flyingoctopus that mentions it. So... he started it!!

Never read both, so I wouldn't know. Not my cup of coffee or is it tea??

@flyingoctopus, there.. I've change it. Thanks for the heads up, didn't realize where it was heading until I read your comment

You almost choke me to death with that, thanks a lot grrrrr. No no no no... no... no. no... never read the book or ever will read the book and don't ever wanna experience the book. It's an abomination and a slap on the face to every decent talented author.

One of these thing is not like the other, hmmmmm..... oh! creating new recipe, I don't think people have time for that